My Best Friend

February 23, 2006

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When we were younger, we told ourselves

“We’ll be best friends forever”

And for the past four years,

It’s seemed as though it would come true

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We basically grew up together

We “took the plunge” and cussed,

Went through puberty, learned some things

And through all the change we stayed

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We went everywhere together

On vacations all the time

Each other’s houses every weekend

Out to eat almost every night

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We both counted on continuing like this

Together at the hip

For the rest of our lives,

We were supposed to stay

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But this year...

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As soon as you got the chance,

You got together with the first guy

Who looked at you and flirted

And made out with him the next week

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He was a senior, you were 9th grade

It scared me half to fucking death

And through it all I felt as though

I was losing you

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The day I saw his car in your drive

After school, you were home alone

My mom, your second mother

And I sat in the living room and cried

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After him came the different friends

They didn’t bother me at all

Until they started changing you,

And all of your old friends knew

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As I saw less and less of you,

We passed it off on school

We had no classes together

And in band you were with 'him'

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You dumped this senior for a guy

Who was still back in eighth grade

It didn’t really bother me

Until he changed his tune

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He was always acting “gangsta”

And sometimes flirted with me

It made me so uncomfortable

It made me want to scream

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Then him and his older brother

Both of them your friends

They told people they had seen you two

Out there having sex

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You denied every last word

And I prayed you were right

Because as the months went by

We were both dying inside

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So once this kid was dead and gone,

The senior came back

I never thought he’d go away

And stop pushing you from me

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By December of the same year,

You weren’t you anymore

I couldn’t recognize the personality

Of the best friend I once knew

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You were dressing differently

And hadn’t been over in months

We used to spend so much time together

But by now you had moved on...

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In January I was so god damned scared

Of what you were turning into

That I wrote it here and you read it

And blamed me for everything

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Well, we worked it out and for a time

Things were getting better

But the nostalgia wore off

And things continued to get worse

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Now today, the blow right to the face

You raked me over the coals

Burning hot, white fire straight

Right through the deep of my heart

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You told me he just kissed you

But I’ve found out otherwise

From your mouth to your other friend’s

I found the awful truth

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I didn’t like the sound of you

Sneaking into this guy’s party

As decent a guy I thought he was

You’d always been smarter than that

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Now after all that I have done for you

Through all these fucking years

You go and do something like this

And you think you’re being “mature”

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Where are you going to go from here?

Word’s already gotten around-

They’re calling you a slut, my friend,

A dirty fucking slut

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And it hurts so bad to hear that stuff

When they’re talking about my friend

The best friend I have ever had

Through all my years alive

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I hate you for what you have done

And for who you’ve become

But I’ll love you forever for the girl

You used to be to me