“Hey, long time no talk…”

“Hey, long time no talk…”

I hadn’t noticed
Almost a year.
Yeah, I’d say that’s a long time
A painfully painful long time.
So why now?

“…wassup?”

I’ve missed you, you ja—
No can’t call you that
It’s profane.
But yeah—I’ve missed you. That’s what’s up.
Oh—can’t say that either—why now?

“Just getting ready for next year…”

When you’ll be gone—
Not that you aren’t already—
Because you can’t stay: you’re dreams aren’t in the past.
If they were it wouldn’t have been this long.
And it has been.

Trying to ignore the time gap…

A few small stabs at a joke…
I almost laugh like last time…
Almost.
Just like it’s almost been a year.
Almost.

“So…it’s almost been…” wait, no…can’t say that. “Drawn anything lately?”

Can you even try to call it small talk?
No. You can’t.
You tried in September. I’ll give you that. And I’ll give you that it was…
Don’t make me remember September.
Don’t make me remember my hope.

A few more cracks at a joke…doesn’t work like last time…

Oh…—dear…—no can’t say any of that.
Loneliness. Don’t make me recall it…
Don’t make me go back to it
I was fine.
Fine I tell you—it was all fine

"Well, I’ve got to go..."

I was finally fine…
Finally alright…
Then today…you…you…
You.
…

Why now?

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Not old, but not good either…I just couldn’t focus on homework because of…yeah…that conversation…