The excruciating misery
Of emotional flames consumed
Swallows whole my feeling
And abandons me to doom

I stagger through a life
That cannot be my own
Yet I stand gazing over
The wreckage of a life on loan

There must be deliverance
From the shores of my pain
But the tide never reaches
Never offers me a gain

I wander through endless time
Lost in a dangerous hell.
People move gingerly when near me
Avoiding my shattered shell

The human that was once lived
Is utterly demolished inside
And the human I am now…
Is at a continental divide

I hear, but I can’t listen
My vision of perfection is blind
By the life that I once had
Not loosening its binds

But Pain laughs at my torment
And revels in my sins
She is merry at my sadness
Her gaiety never thins

And I stumble warily upon
A mirror image of my soul
And I cry out at the horror
Of the kaleidoscope story it told

And my eyes try to make sense
Of the scarred image it transmits
But my brain has lost its touch
And the image remains flipped

But like the works ofcountless humans
There is more than meaning in life
So my tired, hopeless eyes move up
And my head, finally in the right

And then I find my bitter resolve
Lying in a collapsed pile on the floor
To release the tortured imprint of me
Locked behind a mental door

I realize in acceptance
Through tattered remains of my life
That it’s not your fault
For what I did with my knife

I try to set free
My lonely regrets
And my mind tries to see
Through the standards I numbly set

And as my heart pines
In the death of a love
I allow my soul to mourn
An eternally stained dove