Just Us

Here I sit,
listening to this song by that band we all forgot about two years ago,
and one line jumps out,
slaps me in the face.

Some say that time changes,
Best friends may become strangers…

I stop,
look up,
eyes misted,
shaded,
sent to that imaginary place in my mind.

I face you,
hands spread,
voice choked.
Do you remember?
I ask,
implore.
Do you remember being inseparable,
never me or you,
just us?

Do you remember not being at odds?
Hugs?
Best Friends Forever?
Do you?
I beg an answer
and ask

When did we fall apart?
Was it me or you who
changed?
stopped?
forgot?

When did the earth crack beneath out feet
and leave us on opposite sides of a
canyon,
miles wide and fathoms deep?

Tears streak my face,
the memories too much,
wondering if you feel the same.
But you are too far away,
silent on the other side of the ravine,
so I shout out to you,

Do you wish we still were?
Do you notice me in the hall
and want to hug me and promise
never to let go again,
as I do?

Do you wish we would still laugh,
together on the ski lift,
kicking snow down onto unsuspecting passerby?

Do you miss it?
Do you miss being
Just Us?

Silence.
My heart breaks with sorrow,
hands clench with rage.
Tears run down my face in a
mixture of the two.
My eyes harden.
Well I do,
I whisper.
It flies across the silence,
through the mist and the hurt,
to break in waves at your feet.

Snapback.
Don’t say a word,
I know you feel the same,
Just give me a sign,
Say anything,
Say anything…
That band sings in my ear,
fading away.

Here I sit,
listening to this song by that band we al forgot about two years ago,
and missing you.