I can’t keep living like this

An island of despair

No one knows

I can’t say anything

Do anything

Be anything real

There’s no way out

I can’t go on living like this

And you don’t know how I hurt

I cry

I cry when you leave and when you’re lying beside me and you don’t know

And you can’t know

And you shouldn’t know

And they can’t see the pain and the love and the hurt and the trust

And devotion is ripping me apart

And there’s no way out

There’s no way out but one

And the exit is barred

And this door is edged with razor blades

And the razor blades are edged with blood

It leaves stains on the floor

On my heart

Your blood and my blood and our blood

There’s always someone there

They can’t see

They can’t hear

They know nothing

They see everything

They hear everything

They know everything

They’re not there

They’re never there

They can’t know won’t know can’t know

They know

And I love

I love and you love

You love

I love

I hurt

You hurt you and me and we are strong and we are in pieces

And there is no love

And there is no pain

And there is so much love but love is hand in hand with the pain

And the pain is knives

And the pain is razor blades

And the pain is my escape

And there is no escape

But the pain is there

And the razor blades surround the door

I face the door

I see the way out

I am the way out

And the razor blades surround me

And they cut me they cut you

You cut you the razor blades cut you they cut me

And the blood

And I can’t go on living like this

And there is no way out

And I can’t go on living like this

And the razors twist they bend they catch they hold they tear the skin

And the pain

And the pain is the release and the pain and the love

And I love

And I hurt

And I can’t go on living like this

But there is no way out but the pain

And the love

And you love

And I love

And I love