Love After Death

Why are you crying?
I’m not
You claim you loved her
You claim she meant so much
Acting like it’s the end of the world
You hardly ever saw her
Yet you cried when ever she was close to dying
Yeah, I did too
Look at me I’ve cried my tears
I thought you’d cried enough too
I can see why my mom has tears in her eyes
And why Papaw is trembling with grief
And even why my sister is fighting back sobs
And why your older daughter has red rimed eyes
They saw her more than you
But yet you don’t hear their cries echoing off the walls
But we hear them from you
I saw her almost everyday
You didn’t
Sure, she helped raise you
But how do you thank her?
By ignoring her unless you felt like seeing her
Yeah perfect way to thank her
Now you sob and sob
Back then you never cared at all
Do you even know how she looked in the bright sun smiling?
Why are you crying?
I’m not
I know why
You feel to much guilt for her dying.

A/N: this is about my cousin who is the mom to my best friend (her older daughter) i wrote this when my grandma was in the hospital kind of bad but not too bad and my cousin came to my house so so so so sad like she came to see my grandma everyday and aloved her SO much. but in fact my cousin hardly ever sees my grandma. only when it's good for her and that's not alot. it makes me mad that she ignores her until she's sick and then acts like it's the end of the world. it's just not right. my grandma is still alive and i am glad for that cause she's a crazy old lady that i truly love. it's just when she got sick everyone was sad but they were calm. my cousin acted like it was the saddest thing ever. like she was going to die that second.

okay i'll step off my soap box. lol

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