(Another depresser... Rawr.)

I lay in the dark.

Feeling nothing.

Then, all of a sudden,

I felt everything.

From the pain in my heart to the warm feeling of my cat against my bare knee.

Tears start in my eyes.

Making my eyeliner run, and my vision blur.

Not that there’s anything to see, in my room.

The window lets in a tiny bit of light.

Just enough to shine on my CD rack.

Making the album boxes glitter with faded gold lettering, and new shining plastic.

I can still taste the coke I’d just swallowed. It’s metallic and stale on my tongue.

My room smells like sandal wood and the single white rose in the vase on the night stand.

My heart’s beating too loudly, not even my breathing hides it.

The soft fur of my cat leaves my knee, and the pressure on the bed disappears. The blankets under me are warm from my body heat.

My stomach growls, I know I should eat, but I don’t want to move.

The bitter happiness is wonderful to me, this feeling of pain and joy thrown together, a sort of sleepy peace.

I lay in the dark.

Feeling nothing.

All of a sudden,

I felt everything.