Out of Order

4/6/06

Needing you is craving pain
Wanting you is asking for a broken heart
And loving you is deadly poison
You battered and bruised me, without raising a fist.
Every tear of mine that has fallen was engraved with your name.
I wish you could taste the bitter sting of trying to be enough for you
And failing time and again
No blade, no matter how sharp
Could hurt more than this broken heart
I won’t die of a broken heart, I only wish I did
I don’t know why it had to end this way
All I wanted was for you to stay
Nothing is more painful than realizing you meant everything to me
But I meant nothing to you
Maybe it wasn't good enough, but I gave you all I could
I’ve changed so many times for you
Now that you're gone I can't seem to find myself.
All I can do now is smile and pretend everything’s okay
I was so stupid to think that for one second you cared
I could cry every night
But it won't bring you back
Now, the old feeling of wanting to cry
Has turned to a cold feeling of wanting to die.
My heart bares the sign, “Out of Order”
Love. It feels like Heaven and it hurts like Hell.
I wrote your name on the bullet so that you would know
You were the last thing
Going through my head