Toying
4/18/06

If you were with me tonight
I would hold you and kiss you
Give you all my affection

You can run, you can hide
But you can’t escape my love
I will be here waiting

I could have been your strength, your hope
But you pushed me away
When you brought me close

I love you and want you
But you couldn’t see
Maybe you thought I wanted your lust

Search and explore your eyes
Finding an embarrassing amount of other girls
I am absent

You live you your life with open arms
Open to any girl that comes your way
Turning no one away

I ask if you want my kiss, my devotion
If the answer is no, I will leave
But a lustful ‘yes’ escapes your lips

I can’t read the signs you send
Toying with my emotions
Rewarded with giggles and tears

None else will confuse you
As much as I; and in that respect
I will be number one

As I reach the bottom
I die again
Drowning, endlessly falling

Your truth and your lies
Confusing the thoughts in my head
I can’t trust myself anymore

Nothing as sweet as what I can't have
You took away every ounce of confidence I had
For you I would do it all again

Tell me you don’t love me, don’t want me
I won’t be broken again
Let me escape with minimal damage

Crushed, shattered spirit with a deadly weapon
Blood splattered on the wall
Blood dripping from my broken soul