Throw these entries away
As I go through another change
Confused I hang there staring
Everyone just goes on not caring
Questions answered with blank stares
Drown them out as music blares
Changing, morphing, I’m not me
Something I can’t yet see
Trying to impress
By the way I dress?
I don’ t think I can handle
Being a slave in one big scandal
Push these churning feelings aside
The tears, the pain, I must hide
With a smile
All the while
I’m screaming at myself inside
Because I failed when I tried
Stuck between something and everything
But at the same time I slip away unseen
Jostled, pushed, in one big pit
Of confusion, anger and bullshit