I never wanted you to see the real me
The inner mind’s insanity
I never meant to lie to you
Because you’re someone I cannot lose
The scars remind me of my past regrets
The white on tan hold my laments
Crimson lines my blackened heart
As I wait for the bloody rain to start
The things I try so hard to do right
Mean nothing lost into the night
And maybe then I’ll be alright
Losing my will to live and fight
I never meant to say the truth
The inner core my sorrow’s roots
I never meant to cry those tears
To unleash all those painful years
I never meant to finally break down
I never wanted to see you frown
My pain is centered inside I scream
As I lose the last shreds of my self esteem
I never meant to push you away
It’s so dark I can’t see the end
I’m losing myself day by day
Something I will never be able to transcend