When You Decided to Be Gone

I wake up and know that I am again

Alone in this warfare- who knows 'til when

Can't seem to find a way to forget

Get over this feeling of loss and regret

I look up with tears and shut my eyes

No way can I stop this, I realize

For as long as I'm myself and my eyes are two

I will see everything as it reminds me of you

By the window I hear our senseless talks

By the bank of the river- our endless walks

Or ringing laughter and screaming about

Freaking wildly ‘til the fat moon’s out

The floral garden smells of your lovely smile

Heavenly and peaceful as the passing while

That once seemed endless, yet soon to part

But never its traces left undone in my heart

By a sweep of the wind I see your hair

Falling in front of your silent stare

Paving its way deep within my soul

Making me feel that I am whole

The twirl of red leaves, falling like my confusion

Sinking lower and turns to my feeling forlorn

Through that time you spoke of loving someone

As sad as the time when you decided to be gone

Time and again I cry and break

I cry and break for being scared to take

The chances before while they're lying untouched

The love before that was unmatched

All I have now is you in my reverie

Wishing for more than your memory

Had I been brave, had I fought the fear...

Had I said the words for you to hear...

Had I stopped you from leaving and showed you all...

Had I not tarried 'til hearing the church bells toll...