Only I Know (In the dark, on the floor, in My Room)

I’m wasting the time I have left

On your sweet tender lips

The ones that speak no lies

But of this I am never sure

Her eyes hold beauty and mischief

What is it about the way she stands?

Every touch is never enough

She knows how to leave me wanting more

She knows how to leave me

“Let’s be best friends!” she exclaims

“Date that girl you said is pretty.” She encourages

I want to pretend she’s not speaking to me

“There’s a boy I like, he makes me laugh.” She informs me

I feel the jealousy taking over my body

My fists are ready to beat at any surface

Preferably the face of the boy who makes her laugh

She’s always loved me and still does, so she claims

When she kisses him, is it me she’s thinking of?

Has he found all the places that make her go weak?

Fingernails down her back, biting on her shoulder, on her lips

These are the things that make her shiver

These are the things that I wish only I knew

Weeks have passed with unspoken words

Now we’re alone in the dark, on the floor, in my room

We’re so close entwined in each other, but not close enough

“This is normal between best friends,” she asks, “right?”

I nod my head but she sees it in my eyes, I see it in hers

So I hold her close as we move together in the dark

Nails running down her back she bites my ear and whispers,

“Only you know the places that make me go weak.”

But of this I am never sure