Life isn’t a SOAP OPERA!

Deliverance is a pain

Especially when your mouth

controls your actions—one word

and you’re hooked,

believable yet fatal, because

you’ve got almost no more air to breathe

and therefore none to give

Hooked, and you’ve found yourself

touching anything that feels ethereal

No SOLIDITY

will satisfy yo

u

with a broken letter and a broken dream

splashed into nothing, where you drew yourself from

mere HUMANITY

You cannot justify,

Explaining:

you cannot be brave,

have no right

Treat love like a dagger

NOTHING

But a weapon

silent,

only fixation explodes into sound,

THE WAVES KNOCK ME DOWN

Don’t lie stolen when there’s so much left to do,

We cover your mind with a paper bag,

The chains are locked tight

Don’t die when we’ve only bashed you lightly—

what’s that, a dead ego,

buried long ago

Nothing’s carved on the tombstone

We can’t be bothered to WRITE!

While you’re laying there,

like a sound to which we cannot relate—

Are we too late

to see you off?

It’s been so short a time,

You’ve only hurt me once or twice,

I WANT MORE—

could you give it?

I’d die for you, you’re dying for me

Losing all this painful insight,

like the weight a heart attack could lift from you

when you’re old and have everything perfect to lose

(We’re all failing inside anyway,

Internally decaying because tomorrow just isn’t a day away)

Figure, we’ll draw the line, years from now

When we’ve broken all the vows we possibly could, and

Wouldn’t it be nice to see into the future?

I think it would.

I think, time sold itself long ago, when the clocks stopped ticking

and my heart stopped beating.

And you and I, where are we standing now?

Some fucking ocean our lives turned out to be—

“Endless possibilities.”

I know, you were bought miles away, years ago

AND ALL THIS DECAY

Has been throbbing far too long

(Remember, though, time threw itself away)

Can’t it ease, couldn’t I bleed it out?!

I’ve never

seen your work,

May I see you at work?

Oh lifelessness I once loved like a weapon,

like only a fighter should.

I want to peel away

Too heavy to fly,

Too nothing to sink!

My vacation ends with immortality