Mistakes. The Things We Pay for the Rest of Our Lives.

Prologue

Mistakes... We have all made them. We have all wished we could go back in time and fix those mistakes. They rob us of our innocence... They hurt the ones we love. They lower our self-esteem. They are a deadly curse because you made the wrong decision. You wonder why you did what you did. You wonder what will happen because of it.

Some are able to move on with life. Others mistakes take there lives away. Death... confusion... Why did Johnny get in that car? Why did he slam into those poor kids? Mistakes... Sometimes they haunt us... Sometimes they don't. What mistakes have you done? What would you love to go back in time and change?

What if I told you... you could go back in time. Fix your mistakes... Live like they never happened. What if there was a choice B you never considered until after the event happened? What if it could have been avoided? Would you do it? Would you go back in time? Would you go back and stop that Johnny in your life from killing that couple? Or would you let it happen again? What would you do?

I choose to go back in time... It turned my life upside down alright. It almost destroyed me. I fixed my mistakes but I made more after... I couldn't go back and fix those serious mistakes... If it hadn't been for me... Johnny would have survived as well. All I can say is learn from my mistakes... If you can go back... Don't... Because what will happen after may be far worse. Here is my story. Learn from it. Embrace it. And DO NOT follow in my footsteps....

My name is Deirdra Avril Satin. I am from a french speaking family who now live in America. I was born here in this land of opportunity... But I destroyed all that I had with one fatal mistake. I fell in love with that Johnny... Though that's not his name. That night... I remember it like it was yesterday...

It had been like any other day. My boyfriend and one true love was coming to pick me up for our date. He was going to take me to the movies and then maybe to a night club. Before you ask... At the time I was nineteen. You can go into the club... You just can't buy any alcoholic drinks which was fine with me. I don't drink. Never did and never will.

Nick is or should I say was twenty-one. How did we meet? At the very club were going to after the movies. We had been together for one year at the time... But we had been friends long before that. That isn't relevant at the moment so enough about that for now.

Nick had been my knight in shining armor. Never drank too much while club hopping but for some reason that night he did. He got so drunk he couldn't stand.

We went to the movies. Had a great time and then went to the club called Vibe. He drank some beer and then off to the dance floor we went. Every once in a while he would go and nurse a can of beer and come back until he could barely stand. I dragged him over to a table and sat him down and asked him why. What he said gave me the chills.

"I don't love ya anymore Deir... I think we should go our separate ways." I stood up slapped him across the face and left him there with a stupid look on his face.

I called a cab and went home forcing Nick to drive himself home. I regret leaving him like that... I should have taken his keys... I should have done something... Anything but walk away from him... It was the first mistake I made that night.

Nick drove home but never made it there. My parents and little sister had gone out that night and happened to be driving in the opposite direction of Nick. He went into there lane and hit them head on but because of the type of car he had it didn't really damage his. So he backed up and drove off. How he did it I'm not really sure. All I know is that he drove off... Leaving my family to die.

When I got the call I got into my car to go to the hospital. Sobbing all the way when my second mistake took place. A speeding car rammed into the passenger side of my car as I was going across a four way street. I looked up at the car that had hit me. Nick sat there head bleeding and staring at me hungrily.

I stared at him in shock as people started to crowd around the accident. Some were trying to get me out. Some were trying to get him out. His car about ready to explode. I sort of passed out after that. When I woke up a few days later... I found out my parents were killed instantly in there crash. My little sister was alive when they brought her in but died on the operating table a few hours later. I found out Nick was responsible for both accidents but he died shortly after they brought him in.

All alone... and it was all my fault. I tried to kill myself twice before my aunt came and talked to me. I had to be tied down for a long time. When I was released I spoke to no one. In one night I had lost my family and the love of my life. My injures were numerous but I didn't care. I don't even remember what they all were. It was my mistake and now I would have to live with it... But how?