Lost But Still Moving

Whatever I felt before I cant anymore.

What once came to me, now nowhere to be found?

To sit and wait for you, that was a while ago.

But is it really gone or does it hide from us.

I hold up and yell, but no one shows up.

I ask my self
Can it be true or a lie that was always there.

How long will it take to see it is I?

Do you see me or is a blindfold disturbing your sight?

Your shadow runs across my mind day in till night.

For now my own words are in a clear for me.

But can you see what I am doing?

I have been like this for too long.

And I suffer thinking of it as just a lost cause.

So please answer, even if it is rejection.

Only then, shall my heart lose these weights I carry.

And then my soul can rest at ease.

With my life in a complete silence, from all, even I.

To know a last love for me shall still be my quest.

As I find my self lost I just cant help it, to keep moving.

What Was It?

What was it I made myself see?

What was it you saw that made you leave?

What was it that left me with all hope?

What was it that made you lose hope?

Now and then we would doubt.

But never sought to break away.

Now was where we were.

Then, is where I stand-alone.

So tell me, what was it when I saw you?

What was it when we were together?

What was it that you showed me?

What was is that I made you feel?

Tell me, because my mind as passed on in a complete daze.

But my heart still stands where you left.

My mind is strong, and can handle the worst.

Now how can this be, that I have found a way to be in two places at once?

And have a mental sovereignty

When surely I have no way to escape my imprisoned heart?

Am I now without reason to love again?

So are you going to answer me, because I don’t know what any of it was.