August 13, 2006.

So, all hell's broken loose and we're going to die.

THE END!!

No; not really. Bird Flu is probably the only thing I can say right now, because it's the shit we're dealing with. It's so amazing what one fucking virus can do. It's probably already killed over 20 million now. The scientists or however you spell it, say that the mark was supposed to decrease. Hah; decrease, that's great. Apparently it didn't, because now I'm out in the fucking woods living with my friends, and my lover. All we do is steal food when we can, drink from the river, piss in the river, shit in the river, wash in the river, it's all about the goddammed river! We've been in the woods for a couple weeks now, and we've stolen these notebooks from a local WalMart because we know we're going to die; it's just a matter of time, so might as well keep record of our fucking existence. I think our government was trying to lock is all in the town or something; HAH! Fuck that, we're just going to be around the diease and how the hell can that help? It can't; that's what I say.

Life is ending; I know it. The apocalypse is coming and we're gonna stare it right in the eye and tell it to fuck off; that is if we even survive this shit. Lauren is having sex with her boyfriend right now, and it makes me want to fuck mine.

So; I'm going to end this and try to get laid. Who knows when we'll die, right? Why not waste our time fucking.

Peace,
Daryl.

8/13/06

so yeah this is it i guess. i want to tell the world that this is the worst thing anyone culd ever go thro becuz its so frightning and i just dont know about ne thing ne more you know? my friends and i stole sum food and these stupid notebooks. he told us to keep journals daily but thats probably going to be hard because i dont even know what to say. and besides i never write correctly so who the hell wuld sit thro all of this crap? i dont know what to do and i keep repeting this over and over in this thing and its probably annoying right? sorry. i just wish i could get out of here. i dont want to die, i really dont. did i use that comma correctly? probably not. sometimes i cry at night becuz im so afraid of the morning and i just want this all to end. everyones dead dude. everyone. my family is all dead and im so alone. well i have lauren which is amazing but i need that family feel. ill never have it again. never. well. i want to end this because i dont want them to see me crying.

bye,
matt.

August 13, 06

Alright; well..I might as well make a first entry on this thing since I stole one. I love Daryl. I want to say that rite away, because w/o him by my side I would have killed myself right now. I love Matt more though, because he's my lover of course. So yeah. I'm sitting in the woods on this stump thing and my ass is really uncomfortable. I dont know where Daryl and Jason went. Theyre probably having sex. Hot. Haha. So anyways. Our plan is to wait this thing out i guess, or at least thats what Daryl told us. We stole so much shit; like everything! Not just food, like cds and batteries and headphones and random things but mostly food. I hope that this is over soon because i miss my mother, but my father and sister already died. It hurts so much to think about that and right now im crying. And when I get upset I lose the fight. So I should stop soon but it hurts so much. I wanted to die with them but at the same time I didnt, isn't that so stupid?

Im listening to the Madonna cd I bought a while ago. It keeps me calm. Especialy the song Isaac. It really soothes me. So anyways I dont know what to say right now except im terrified. Im glad that I have some people to talk to atleast. It helps me.

Alright, Im going to go and chill w/ my baby.

See ya.
Lauren.

8 13 06

I'm so alone. Even though I have Daryl with me; I feel so alone. I miss my family, and I miss all my other friends. I miss the feel of laying on a couch and not caring about the world, now I have to care. If I don't I could die; that's a horrible thought. I miss everything and I can never stop crying. I feel as though running away from this thing won't help. I really feel like we're all going to die; so why even care, you know? I wish I had someone to help me, but Daryl is here so I'm fine. I don't even know what I mean anymore. He makes me feel so complete, and he always wants me to never be afraid, and if something is wrong he's there to kiss away my problems. We have sex a lot, but I don't mind; sometimes I want it so badly so it's all good. Like just now; he approached me but I'm the one who started it. Lol. Lol..I've never used that word before in my life; I must be going insane. This is amazing. It's so hot out, too. Maybe we can go skinny dipping later. Or something, and I'm so hungry. God!

I just want this all to be a horrible nightmare that lasts for a couple weeks..or maybe I fell off a building and now I'm in a coma. Can I wake up, please? This is so surreal I can't even believe it.

I don't know if anyone will find this, but if they do this is what happened. Theres this thing called the bird flu, right? Well, it's been killing millions all around the world and so many people in the united states, and our government has basically given up. How nice of them, right? So yeah; I'm here with my lover Daryl and my friends Matt and Lauren who are also dating. We steal and live in the woods, and we stole a lot of notebooks. Doesn't that seem so pathetic? Well, we're so afraid. My hand hurts from writing so much, but I get into things like this.

Anyways, we each have seperate part of the woods because..well, Daryl and I are gay and we have sex as much as Lo and Matt. Also; we just like the space, but we always make sure that we come back within three hours..oh yeah we stole watches too. We sleep together because we're afraid of losing eachother but I think we will all die as sad as that is.

Alright, I can't continue. I have too many thoughts running through myself.

I just wish we could all be saved; please, God. Someone, please.

Love,
Jay.