Seraph

Prologue:

The year is 2052.

The technological advances have been numerous, but the same problem that has been confronted since the dawn of human civilization, that same problem has become all the more prevalent across the globe. Fear. Conquest. Hatred. Lust. The morals on which our society flourishes on are the true forces that make our world go round. Man’s downfall started with the bite of an apple, and ended in a not so different way…

My life in a nutshell, is chaos, for forever, for eternity, for as far as my memory spans, I have only known chaos, only seen chaos, only heard chaos, only felt chaos, so naturally when I woke up on that fateful day, the day that would define my existence and reveal the path that had been so carefully planned out for me, I felt different. I recognized this and knew that everything was about to change. For eternity. For mankind. For existence. For Destiny. For Me. And I had no clue as what to do, for fighting the inevitable was a lost cause, only to be crushed by fate, destiny and other forces that I had absolutely no control over, or did I?

I accepted this change in my perspective, and I dealt with it. Something I hade never done before, for acceptance was one of the only things that I had ever found a true challenge, I couldn’t accept that I couldn’t have absolute control over my life, or the lives of the people around me, I never accepted the idea that true love cannot actually conquer all, and I NEVER allowed myself to accept failure. Failure was what happened when you gave in to your fear…

Failure was an excuse to allow yourself to feel better that you messed up, that the choices you make affect someone else’s life but what can you do u gave up hope, in the most direct sense. Failure, out of every word in any language on this lonely planet of ours, is the one thing that I fear, the one thing that threatens my life, that threatens the lives of others, and the threatens the welfare of my world particularly my country.

In some way, I guess that is what connects us, you, me and some random innocent person walking on the street. We all fear something, no matter the magnitude or inferiority of our fear in the minds of others, the fear is the one thing other than love and greed that can completely consume a person, it is our fears that drive us to make every choice in our life. Because every action you take has an opposite and equal reaction, that’s Newton’s third law, and it applies to fear just as much as to physics.

Our fear, it drives us, stops us and blinds us, but no matter what eventually you have to face it take a deep breath and walk over it, knowing very well that life will just throw something else for you to fear right in your face once we make it over our first conquest in this eternal game.

But what, what if you could some how, some how control fear, stop it , go around it, and avoid its carefully laid out path? What if you never feared anything but fear itself, what if by not experiencing fear, being taught that fear is nothing but a barrier, what if you learned to break the cycle, and now, now you are free, free to do as you please, and for but a while, have no fear. But that is only until you are sucked back into the vicious cycle, because like I said before, you cannot control others actions, only yours, and sometimes your mind and body are in completely different places… That is how I have been living for the past ten years…

Perhaps we are born with fear, or born into a fearing world, it is something we learn, yet we never learn the reason of our having fear, never having a reason to fear, never wanting a reason to fear, but we start to get sucked further in…in the unavoidable cycle that never lets go…

And I want to try to accept that there is no reason for fear, that it is just some primal thing that we are born with, or subconsciously taught, but I have a feeling that it is something else…

This is my story, this, this is how the end of mankind’s downfall began…

Hmmmm. Now let’s start at the beginning…

The end of the first chapter of my life, and the start of the next, which coincidentally was the bowling ball to fates pins, my one choice had started Fates decision to catch up with us… and me…

But u can never really avoid the inevitable…right?