Why? 5-23-06

Don’t tell me you know

How it fells

That you’re so different,

That people look right past you

Because you do not know

You couldn’t

Especially when you try to be sympathetic

You’re just doing this for a dare

Or to show-off to make you look better in your little group of preppy pals

But just because I’m not ‘cool’

And may be invisible to all,

I do know a loser,

A deceiver

When I see one

You can’t fool me with your disguise

Besides I can see it

Right there in your lieing eyes

You shall not push me around

You’re never going to take me down

So get out of my face

With your masquerade

But I wish

You really did know

Because then you really could care

You truly and honestly would

But you don’t

Why would you?

Popular

And hansom

But not very witty

You may think you’re something

Yah you’re something all right

You think I need your pity?

Ohhh but don’t worry

Which you won’t

So go

I’d rather be all alone

With little old me

Than to be seen with you

Get a clue?

I don’t like you

Leave me please

You make me sick

And make me wheeze

And………..

And…

As you walk away…

I realize…

That I still love you

But I promise never to tell you

You may not understand what I feel any way…

But you…

I turn way

And let the water slide from my eyes

I begin to lose my self

And fall to knees

What’s this?

It’s your hands?

Stopping my fall

Their rapped around me

From behind

I get my balance

And turn around

You’re crying to?!

But why?

I ask letting the words slip through my lips

You open your eyes

But still you hold me

It’s hard to say

That’s what you tell me

I open my mouth to reply

But you take your hand from my back

And place your soft finger on my lips

You say nothing

As you look down to me

Your eyes try to hide something

As you look into mine

You close your eyes once again

And place you hand back where it had been

You kiss my forehead

Your eyes open

I look back in disbelief

You say you’re sorry

For what I ask softly

For waiting so long to tell you

I didn’t want to let them

Or you to see how I felt

I’m sorry for the tears in your eyes

Now it was my turn to stop you

I place my finger on you lips

And tell you, don’t be

I did my fair share of taunting

And that I was sorry too

I close my eyes as I talk to you

And continue

Because security I felt the same way for you

Suddenly your lips are on mine

Warm soft and smooth

For a long time we stand

Finally we break apart

Knowing we both hold each other’s heart

I love you, you confess

And I you, I reply

You begin to release you grip

I want to say no

And find my self lifting my arms

And rapping them around your shoulders

Don’t go

Not yet

I whisper in you ear

You look at me again

And reach for the tears running down my face

Your hand ruff but soft pressing lightly on my cheek

I close my eyes

And bury my face against your firm chest

You place you chin on my head

And said…

I’ll never leave you

Not again.