Remember Me

©2006 Kirsten Nussey

When I sat down to write this note I knew exactly what I wanted to say, but now that I’m writing it I don’t even know what I’m supposed to write. Maybe I should start with sorry. I’m sorry. For everything. I never meant for any of this to happen, and I certainly didn’t expect that I’d ever be writing you this note.

I just got so wrapped up in myself that I didn't understand what I was doing. My life is spiraling out of control and I won't let it hold me in its grip any longer. I've hurt so many of you too many times and I've hurt myself twice that amount. I realize that now but it’s too late for empty apologies. I just need to feel truly happy and I’ve tried, I really have, to make things work - but I can’t try anymore. I won’t try anymore. Please just don't worry about me, everything is going to be alright, it’s for the best. I know that if I stay I'll never be happy. It’s what I want.

I don't want you to forget me but I do want you to get on with your lives, I know that this is going to hurt you but not as much as me staying around might and it will get better, believe me it will. It has to.

I can never repay you for all that you've done for me and the kindness that you have shown me, and I know that I can never apologize enough for what I've done to you, I just want you to know that this has not been your fault, you've been nothing but good to me. I just can't live like this anymore. Please can you do me one last favour? Don't hate me.

Remember me, always and forever,

Raven

A/N: This is the prologue to the rewrite of my previous story "Remember Me, Always and Forvever". Chapter One should be up by the end of the night and i'd really like your opinions; i'll return all reviews.