I tried believing that love is for fools

and that passing school is my only rule.

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I'm struggling to keep up with this fight,

which has gone on day and night.

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I'm willing myself to keep up on this rode

when really my mind wants to stray right back

to the strangers’ face that I just happened to cross paths.

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It was around noon, wasn’t it?

When I first saw your face.

Sigh… I saw you to soon.

Now isn’t the right time.

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I grabbed you by the back

And murmured “I have a crush on you.”

I felt like a fool.

Yet I felt giddy when you came back.

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“Do you like anyone?” My mom asked later that day.

“No, I can’t waste my time.” I said.

“Ha, such a good girl.” My mom says with a smile. “Don’t ever.”

I held my head back as I said to myself “Never.”

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You walked by my side day after day.

Yet, I was scared to say, “Want to go out?”

Because I’m not supposed to fall in love just yet.

Can we be friends instead?

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My grades started to slip.

Now I’m scared.

If I go any lower,

My parents will flip.

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She thought I was wondering, “Does he like me back?”

She, my friend took me to walk around the block

Till we saw him, my crush.

She ran up to him while I ran away.

She came back with a sour face

Saying “I asked him if he liked you. And he said why?”

I smiled in relief.

Never do I want to know just yet.

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But the next day, he walked passed me.

And the next and the next.

My grades slipped more.

“What’s wrong with me?” I asked myself, looking at a failed test.

He was on my mind. He’s hard to ignore.

I need to concentrate. This is why I never wanted to fall in love.

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I got to the point, where I forgot about him.

I was myself again.

Yet those moments when we crossed paths,

I noticed him look away

As I stared.

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“Did he really like me back?” I wondered to myself.

I stood at the same spot we use to meet up

Because I was waiting for my friends.

He came up to me saying hi. And in the end,

Left sounding sad.

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Last day of school, I saw him again.

I hung out with him along with two friends.

I kept staring at him, noticing him look away.

“It’s not the right time, this year.” I said to myself.

As I walked away, I wanted to turn back, and say

“Thank you for everything!”

But instead, I kept on walking.

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Now isn’t the right time.

And neither is next year.

Somewhere down the line,

I’ll be ready.

But by then, he’ll have someone.

And I’ll be praying that he’s happy.