Stop Existence

No matter what you say
No matter what you said before
I don’t fucking matter
You don’t fucking care anymore

They say things fall apart
But then you pick up the pieces
But I don’t, I just go numb
And the pain, it suddenly ceases

I can’t feel your touch anymore,
Although I wish I could
Because, to tell you the truth
Your touch – it felt so good

I just want to abruptly die
I just want to stop existing
But with you, it’s truly impossible
To successfully start resisting

What is there to live for?
Nothing, my answer is
There’s no time for sensitivity, hon
What can I say? That’s showbiz

And sure, I can’t compare my life
To television, or showbiz, or things like that
But I can pretend, right?
‘Cause he’s only pretending to be a brat

But he’s not pretending, I know
And I can’t stand the pain
So all my feelings spill out here
All of them in vein

I’m much too sensitive
Especially in the subject of friends
I forgive and forget all the time
I let things go to the end

And that’s why I can’t stand me
And that’s why I can’t stand you
And that’s what happens when I feel
That I just can’t make it through

And so, all my emotions
Come visiting here, as you’ve heard:
This same old word processor
By the name of Microsoft Word