leave me in pieces

leave it up to you to make me feel miserable
all over again (i thought i came close enough to
forgetting every(/one)thing that has caused me
to bleed, vomit & cry everything out in order to
((try to)) be perfect for you). and leave me to be
broken, please, because i can't be fixed. too many
pieces are in need to be put back together and i'm
tired of trying to fix myself. i know this can't end
with me. there's something that you must do first.

i wish these scars weren't for you (because it's so hard
to stop) but you mean(t) that much to me although you
may have thought otherwise (& maybe even more than
you wanted and more than i needed at the moment).