Worth It

Thrashing my mind of it's helpless cause,

Dying hard for the secret I lost,

I tried to assist the person who falled,

But failed to comply with my own safety.

Letting someone in isn't easy,

But I opened my door so wide,

You walked straight in,

Tipped your hat and sighed.

Used me to help you through your tough time,

But when I found what was meant to be,

You couldn't help but stab,

I heard it once, twice, and again.

I failed to believe the words spilling at me,

But the proof came and I still didn't budge,

You continue to cut with out pause,

You said what triggered the defense.

The very thing I tried to hold back,

For what if they were wrong?

What if they misunderstood?

I believed you still.

There's a tangled noose around my neck,

And it isn't loose anymore,

You pulled the lever that let me through,

My mind falls apart.

All through this time after searching,

I let you in and I found what I needed in him,

But your success never came,

So you had to punish me.

You had to laugh at my cries,

You had to cut my back wide open,

Pour salt in the wounds,

And then sew me back up.

Oh for sanity's sake,

I only found happiness,

I now know that it was worth this pain,

And you didn't serve as you should've.

So cut another stab,

Throw another punch,

Say I'm worthless,

I still won't say it wasn't worth it...

A/N: To someone who I tried to help, but she hurt me anyway when I found my happiness with someone... she lied to me when I believed in her, I'm still upset, but she was sopposed to be my friend... I hope none of you relate to this...