“Dying on the Inside”

You said I was so sweet,
Always smiling at something
And accepting what was set before me

You never knew

I was dying on the inside.
With every false laugh
And forced smile
Every waking moment molding me into the perfect nothing

You said I made you proud
While beaming benevolently down on your dreams
Those threadbare thoughts left in my lap

You never knew

I was dying on the inside
Each moment of my life lost in my dedication
To empty promises and worn out wishes
That were never mine to begin with.

Now my sugared facade
Has rotted away my core
And cold realization
Of the life I don’t have
Has poisoned me

You never knew
How empty it made me

Now,
Lost and apathetic,
If I make you proud, I don’t know it
Why try
There isn’t much left to me,
This empty shell
This poisoned soul
That I’ve become.

Do you see it yet

I’m dead on the insideIt’s too late to save me now.