I Lied to the Whole World, a Love fanfic

A/N: So, this is a sudden idea I got today, and I just had to get it out.

Please excuse the crude language use and everything. I didn’t really have time to think this thing through. Yeah. It was like I woke up, and then, BAM! It hit me. It is based somewhat on true life. Stick to it please. It may be a bit boring in the beginning, but I hope it gets better for you. Muahz. Peace, love, and joy to y’all. Summer’s here in the northern hemisphere!

I’m off in a faraway land.

Dreaming, and flowing with my mind’s unconscious river of thoughts

My mind, like a glass lake, images shimmer in and out of focus

Ripples of memories and tides of emotions

It is near dawn, the time of dreams.

Whisper, one is coming.

The trees shiver, and the wind moans.

The lake ripples with waves, memories washed onto shore

The image in the lake is clear and lucid.

The fog is lifted from my sleeping mind to let me know my dream.

Stirring in my bed, I see what my mind tells me to.

Off in a desert, the land is orange.

Tinged with flecks of sand, no green is seen anywhere.

Floating, I am suddenly left on the land. Gravel crunches under my sneakers

My hair blows in the wind and gets caught in my face.

Walking only a few more steps, the land suddenly stops, and down it drops

Farther than any chasm I have ever seen

Deep down it goes.

Leading the center of the earth and hot like the centers of hell

The sun is scorching my back now.

Looking down, I move my head forward and I sway precariously over the edge of the canyon

Someone is on my shoulder.

Their hand is on my shoulder. It is cold and dry.

Whipping around, I see you.

You, with your sly little grin and those deep brown eyes.

Your hands are on my waist now.

You say:

Be careful honey, or else you might fall

I say:

Don’t worry, I’ve never fallen before

Come.

Come see this

Come over the edge

See this with me

I hold his hand and bring him beside me

He leans over and looks down

Gulping and breathing deeply, he keeps looking at the enormous height one can fall to ones death, into the river below,

That ran with dark and black water

From the shadows created by the walls of this death chamber

Isn’t it beautiful?

It’s so dark and forbidden

With a slight push on his back

He’s gone

His light grip on my hand is loosened,

He screams but I laugh

He falls and falls and falls

He falls so long, that his screams are lost to me, and his body hits the water

No sound is heard from above.

Gone forever

But now, my mind takes me to another place.

A green grassy hill on a sunny day.

The grass sways in the wind

But I’m all alone now

All by myself and so lonely

Panic constricts my throat

And tears come to my eyes.

I am alone.

The thought settles in

I can feel a panic attack coming on

Shivers descend upon me.

My hair is loose now, long and straight, it sways in the wind as I begin to sob

My hands are on my face

I pushed the last person who cared for me over the edge

The last one who tried to care at least

The one who made the façade of caring

And now

I’m all alone, on my own

I’m standing alone on the pretty hill having the grass sway by my ankles

Just another lonely little girl that is crying

sobbing my heart out

And mourning the loss of everything that was dear to me

But then, all of a sudden, like magic

You appear in front of me

Just like Prince Charming

And I am Princess Cinderella

You’re smiling and there is laughter in your eyes

Only a few feet up on the hill

You look at me

And then

You open your arms to me

Oh baby

How I longed for this moment

I shriek before I run wildly up the hill towards you

I crash into you

And then I cry out

Out to my hearts content

And I cry all I want because I know now that I haven’t lost everything

Because I still have you

You will always care for

And always love me

I love the feel of your hard chest

I love the feel of the fabric of your clothing on my cheek

I love your intoxicating scent

And I love your strong arms around me

I love how you nuzzle against my hair

I love your inaudible murmurings

Oh how I love you

My head lifts and so does yours

Tentatively

I get on my tippy toes

I kiss your cheek

And I love the way you skin feels against my lips

A few tentative kisses on your right cheek. Small pecks

And you turn your head towards my lips

I kiss your little button nose

But then

You make me the happiest woman on earth

You kiss me

Pulling me towards you in your strong and powerful arms

You kiss me deeply and passionately

You say:

I missed you so much lovely

I missed you so much that it hurt my heart

Oh I am already a mess of melted love and I’m just dying of happiness

I wanted to hear those words so badly

I will remember this moment in your arms, so peacefully,

I’ll never leave you again

If I do, I’m one idiot

But then, the sun disappears and the storm approaches

Thunder and lightning threaten to pour rain on us

And then I remember

Why

I left you in the first place

You selfish jerk

And idiotic bastard

I remember now

All the pain you caused me

When you left me

But then I found him

Maybe he could replace you

But he couldn’t

No one can replace you in my heart

I pushed him over

Because I wanted you instead

I lied

I said I didn’t fall

I said I never fell

But I lied

I lied to the whole world

When I told them I didn’t fall

Cause I fell for you.

I feel so hard and so fast

I didn’t even realize it

But how I can love someone like you

You hurt me too much

And too many times

I know why I stay away from you now

Maybe over time

I’ll learn to forget you

But it hasn’t happened for the last three months

Soon

Maybe my mind can have some rest

Maybe my mind can finally find peace in knowing that I will be over you

All too soon I wake up

The sun is shining in my face

Dreamland is gone

The lake is broken and the waters churn more roughly now

I wake up and open my eyes

Remembering my dream

I remember that things I dreamed about

I wanted you

I threw him away

I still miss you after so long

And then I descend into tears and curl up into a ball

No matter how brightly the sun shines

It won’t reach the bottom of my heart.

Where you once lay