i wonder if these feelings

are a blessing or a curse.

they seem to grow,

each time i see that smile upon you face

or the tears that fall down your cheeck.

if only you saw what i saw,

that night i stared into your eyes.

that i would do anything for you.

and always love you....

if only you knew.

would you laugh?

or console my fears of rejection?

only you would know.

becasue you are the one

who is in the life of chaos...

the one who has a life in his hand...

the one who holds my heart.....

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