I’m a Horrible Person

I want to tell you something,
I haven’t been able to in a long time,
It’s that I’m sorry for being me,
Even though I knew it hurt you,
I’m sorry that I do these things,
That make you want to cry,
Someday I hope to forgive myself,
Right now I just want to die,

Painfully I just sat by, waiting alone,
For some excuse to show up,
every time it didn’t I had nothing,
To say to make it okay, forgivable,
Though you choose to ignore it,
The fact that I hurt you, by my ways,
I know what I do and do it anyway,

Everything is my fault, I see my wrongs,
I wonder why you haven’t left me yet,
I’m a horrible friend, I agree with that,
And I do nothing to change the fact,
What ever happens I’m to blame,
Because I don’t have a reason,

I’m sorry for ignoring the duties I had,
I’m sorry for everything I didn’t do,
I feel bad for the nights I wasn’t there,
You were left alone to cry by yourself,
I wasn’t there to help, ignoring,

Feel free to hate me now, I deserve it,
When you think twice, know it,
I deserve it, every time you’re sorry,
Be me and hide it deep inside,
To say when it’s too late,

I’m sorry for the phone calls,
I’m sorry for the excuses,
I’m sorry for what I did, even what I didn’t,
I wasn’t someone to count on but you did,
I let you down too many times, I understand,
If you hate me now, it’s a good reason,

That I never answered when you called,
Never gave help when it was needed,
I deserve your wrath and rage at me,
I need something to kill me,
Because in this life I bring you pain,
I don’t think I can take that,
You’re everything and I left you nothing,
I have been so unfair to you,

You’ve done nothing but try your best,
I’ve done nothing and ignored your pleas,
I’m a horrible person, which is no good,
Hurt me for once, I deserve it,

So, I’m sorry for everything I’ve ever done to you,
And anything that I might of said that hurt you,
Everything that I didn’t do and all the things I did,
I’m sorry for waiting this long, I’m a horrible friend,
If you forget me I’ll think nothing of it, I deserve it,

I’m deserving of the hell that you will give,
I deserve to feel the hurt I’ve caused you,
I’m such a horrible friend, I don’t deserve you,
You’re such a wonderful person,
My dark light can’t consume you.

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A/N: it's not the best thing i've everwritten but it holds a lot of emotion for me. it's basically selfexplaining. it's the way i feel towards my bestfriend. okay, well, that's pretty much it. hope you like it a little though it's seriously not the best work i've ever done. :D

Hearts!