Beneath my feet

Beneath the sand

The earth trembles

The ocean sings

The wind screams

All different songs

To one tune

Or is it the opposite?

I don't know

Anymore

Sometimes I forget

Forget who I am

That I'm actually alive

That I'm actually Ashley

I forget that I'm the one

That's living this life

And become…

Something else

Someone else

Someone who never existed

In time, in anything

She is not my sister

She is not my friend

This is not my room

Or skin

Or hands

Or eyes

But somehow

I don't know how

I come back

My heart beats

My thoughts return

And I remember

If even for just a moment

Who I am

So that I'm not lost forever

But just for a while

Always returning

Always coming around

Like I always think I will