Getting back up and Falling back down

I was broken, lost, and confused

And there you were loving

Therefore, I refused

My heart was broken and

I was afraid of again being used

We hung out more and more

And you kept pushing for my love

I stopped caring about me before

Because I had lost myself

So all I could do was ignore

Your friends got aggravated with me

Because we fooled around a lot

Even after I said I didn’t want us to be

I was confused about everything

I want to take it all back and be free

After three long months of stress

You started pushing me away

And then I became a mess

Then you found someone else

Therefore, I decided not to confess

Being away from you

Helped me to find myself

The me that is true

The one that I wanted to be

If I was to continue

I didn’t want to be fake

You deserved all of me

But not it is too late

For me to show you me

I know I made a mistake

Now I have to pay

For lying to you I know

I don’t know what to say

I am still lying to…

Myself to this day.