Know What it is to be Honest.

I have never been an individual who has a remarkable face. My strength has always been something else that is unusual for the most part or at least that is what I’ve discovered. I am brutally honest. I speak with a cruel flick of the tongue using my intelligence as a weapon when I feel it is needed; I attack those who I feel are stupid so that they might heal and learn from their misdeeds.

My strength, no, my truth in many ways is who I am. And that honesty is something that I have found can be rather rare in these times. I speak through the voice of someone who makes the attempt at showing people that I meet life is not something that you can find through accepting others intuitions. It is dancing in the rain, twisting, fighting and becoming all that you wish to be.

This sounds haughty, rude, and maybe it is, but that is fine. I have never been afraid of being different; in fact sometimes I fear that I am in many ways too similar to those sheep that I see going through the motions. So let it be said that I am egotistical, completely and with no dour fake apology. Go ahead, whisper it in my ears in the middle of the coldest night, or scream it at the top of your lungs before a crowd.

I will give you a wide smile, as I do what I have always done.

I will be what I am, and I will relish it.

It is or will be the painful flick of a hand into the brick wall at my school. It’s the tears streaming down my face into the pillow or those awful things I say about my friends when no one is around. The lust I feel when it is so very wrong, though I do nothing to hide it.

I relish these things.

In the shadow or the light of this world I will be whatever I wish, not more or less. In some moments that render me to be loud, cruel, disgusting and totally socially unacceptable, I feel a fact is needed and I’m compelled to express it.

Though this also, it gives me an opportunity to be naturally kind, to love those people who are thrown away into the dumpster of this thing called existence, a different perspective if you will.

Some would disagree with the idea that being cruel in one instance is balanced out with a kind act in another or they feel that I simply do not have the right to be foul. Wrong again! Humans are meant to be selfish. That is what we are, but not all of the time. People are supposed to take those awful emotions with the good ones, otherwise they are just being dolls, fake or illusionary.

What happiness can be found in being complacent? It is not honest to express a hatred or misdeed of another? The society believes this so.

“Turn the other cheek,” they say. “Treat others as you wish to be treated.” Lies! Untruth’s spouted by people who are too afraid of the pain that would come with a slap or misguided word. Fear has caused this, or at least that is what I think, although maybe that is just an egotistical thought?

We live in a false, dishonest world that I say should be abolished, let all the sins and sweetness be that for which they are! Fiercely beautiful in their own power, the way that one man’s words may save, or condemn another.

Are we sheep, or wolves? Is humanities meant to be permanently chastising itself for those things that are our very nature?

I offer this argument. Some day when your wife or husband has gone to sleep after a tedious day of work with the children tucked safely away in their plush mass-produced beds, do you wonder what it would be like to be a ‘sinner’? What it’s like to find lovely peace that comes with releasing your greatest burdens, releasing the weight of being acceptable.

Think of this later when you have scorned me and turned away, placing this piece of “lies” into a nice safe box. You can return and pull it out and hold it close to your heart, though you do not wish too, and feel. Feel all of those emotions that you have before pushed away, and for once embrace them. Spin and then fall into the spring grass. Scream into the lonely night in a suburban neighborhood. Tear apart that piece of paper your boss wanted. Do these things and destroy all of those safeties.

Relish life for all that it is worth.

Know what it is to be honest.