free
fall
tonight

you turn your back and leave
i close my eyes as you’re fading away
(into the distance)
and when i open them, you’re
g o n e
out of sight, out of mind
but that saying’s not for me
even when i’ve showered
and tossed and turned in
sweaty sheets for hours
your image won’t be banished
in my head, you’re still
brown hair, red t-shirt, blue jeans, converse sneakers
viewed from the back
walking away from me, into
black
(into the distance)
and i’m chained to the spot
with iron links wrought from confused
whorls of thought
can’t chase after you
anymore
but i can never
turn
away
(like too many times you did to me).

and you never appeared
as if out of thin air
as if
by magic
to catch me.

i waited.