“Thoughts”

here i am

the girl you want me to be

this is me

the girl you think i am

behind a smile

pain that has been paralyzed

inside my tears

happiness longing to escape

this girl i have become

by my own insistence

not for myself

for everyone else's sake

i may seem normal

i am only subconsciously mobile

i merely exist

you say you don't hate me

you will

once you realize

the secret i've been hiding from you

what if i am not who you think i am?

i am someone else

hiding in the shell

of the one you think you know.