Letter to My Ex-Boyfriend

I hope you mind my mistakes,

Because usually I make them in haste,

The last poem I last wrote got erased,

The real version you should be reading,

But anyways,

I still love you,

I still have feelings for you,

But with what has been going on I'm not so sure,

I hope you can make better sense of these words that I write,

Because this is my internal fight,

I can't make sense of them,

And everyone's who has tried to help confuses me even more,

I'm unsure of love,

I pass yet fail,

I don't know what to do,

Because me myself is changing,

Myself...as a whole is changing,

I'm learning about love, pain, sadness, myself,

I wish it was simple,

To just say those simple words,

To form them to a sentence on my lips,

But no...

It's hard for me,

I'm shy,

I'm unsure,

I don't want to be hurt.

I'm scared about the next 3 years and what will come after it,

The next pretty girl that will catch your intrest,

The next person to break up a relationship,

I can't see me with any other guy,

No...

I hope you handle these words with care,

Because this is me,

Me inside,

I'm letting you in,

I hope you aren't laughing with your friends over this,

I hope you shoo them away and read to yourself,

Because it would hurt me to know you take this as a joke,

When I'm dead serious,

I always think about us,

What would happen if we were together still,

I hope you take that to heart,

But remember,

I pass yet fail when it comes to love,

Same in life,

I'm not perfect,

I can't be perfect,

Prefection is nobody,

And I try to be not nobody,

I'm scared,

To hear rejection,

I'm scared,

Of everything that would tear us apart,

I miss our time together,

I miss just being able to talk to you,

I miss...a lot...

So take these unsaid words to heart,

See if you can make sense of this rambling inside of my mind

And please come talk to me.