Best Friend to Stranger

I looked back on when we were young
And remember how much fun we used to have

I remember you always laughing
Always willing to play with me

I miss the old you
I miss you

I remember I loved to follow you around
Like every younger sibling would do

Saying that they want to be like they’re older sibling when they grow up

I remember always bugging you
Annoying you to all ends
But you doing it to me also

I remember you were my best friend
Always there for me
Always had my back if someone came and threatened me
You would always be by my side to back me up

I remember that I could confide in you
Know that I would do the same for you

And I remember that we would always use these secrets against each other
Blackmail each other until we both agreed that is wasn’t worth it

I remember you showing me how to draw

I remember admiring your work
And try so hard to copy it but in the end it was a horrible replica
And I remember you helping me make it look better
Drawing me pictures that I would keep to show off to my friends

And I still have them
Throwing away none

I remember when everything started to go down hill
I remember both of us crying in each others arms that day

I remember coming back and not being able to concentrate at school
I remember the call saying you were in the hospital
I remember going there to see you
I remember missing you then

I remember you crying in your bed
I not knowing what to do but get help
I remember that it turned into a normal thing
I remember you going to the hospital a normal thing

I missed you so much

I could see the old you fading away
The new you becoming so quiet and withdrawn
But still some of the old you there
Just barely
And I remember loving to see that you again

But now
All I see
Is a stranger who replaced my best friend
A stranger who I don’t know if I can love them the way I used to back then

I see this black abyss
Where I see us playing with our beanie babies and dolls
And slowly falling to the darkness
Never to be seen again
And then I see you as you are now
Not knowing what to think
Just hoping that you will someday come out of your reverie
But I hope that to be soon
Because
I hate having a stranger as my sister
I always have
All I want is my best friend back

I miss you