Through the looking glass

is such a good term

for how I feel.

I love blindly

yet watch from a distance

as a relationship crumbles

and reforms

like a finely tuned planetary motion

or an igneous rock formation

but how now

do I destroy myself

to make it happen?

I'm flatlining

to keep you two alive

but the smile on your face

when your with him

is worth every beep of my

heart monitor.

I'm loving blindly

and Its gonna flatline me.

I want you

But I can't have you

this I know.

My only goal

is to make you happy

It always has been.

My life is forfeit

if you feel pain that I can prevent

My only goal, is to make you happy

even if it flatlines me.