“Please”

I know my chaotic actions Speak volumes, saying the wrong things
As I sway from joy to frightened confusion.
I know my jumbled words
Try to say too much
While often saying nothing at all.
And all I do is frustrate and confuse,
My mouth apologizing for imagined wrongs
My actions and reactions lashing out
Then blaming myself
Then blaming everyone else
Then hiding in fear of what I think I've done.
And so the cycle continues.
I know my ears
Sometimes seem to hear
Things you don't might not even mean
And my mouth jumps back in,
Or I just back off.

And there you are, being who you are.
And here I am trying to be who I think I should be
To be worth all that you are.

I know you didn't fall in love with who I should be
But who I am.
I get it now, at least a little
I never meant to hurt you with this.
Please be patient.

So if I can't seem to show you or say to you what I mean.

Then please, please read what I can't hide.
My heart is written in my eyes.
Trust them.
My heart knows its love
And my eyes will speak the truth.

Please listen.

Sirius