lie after lie

i don't want to see you
d e a d

how many fucking times do i have to say it?

how can you be turning
into one of them?
you told me, you promised me
you would always be here for me
but how can you if
you're dead for the stupid
things you've done?
do i have to repeat what i said:

you've made countless mistakes
and it's so hard to listen to the arguments
everything than can happen scares me
everything that has happened depresses me

do you remember that day?
april 25, 2006.
then it was guns.
now it's jail.
now it's two car crashes
in one month.
'i'm your big brother and
i'll always be here'

('andi'llalwaysbehereandi'llalwaysbehere')

oh god it echoes in my head
(and i want to believe it so badly)
How can I be sure?
You made a promise...
it's hard to believe when
you tell lies after lies...

a/n: about my brother, he's going through his trails right now & i'm scared for him b/c it's actually 4 car crashes & a load of other stuff...