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Lien
Kay left on Sunday, so Jeena and I had to go back to school the next day. It was such a pain. I wanted to sleep in and cry. But I had to face Jeena.
We sat with our friends for breakfast, but she pretended like it never happened. I’d have to get her alone before she would talk about it.
I should probably explain that I’m a senior in high school and so is Jeena. Kay’s a year older than us, and he just went to the Marines. I feel like I’ve known Kay for a long time, even though it was only a year. I met him before Jeena did. Often times we would separate during lunch to hang out with our different friends, and through my friends, I met Kay. I introduced Kay to Jeena.
I sighed as the bell rang, telling us we needed to get to our proper classes. Jeena and I had practically the same schedule, so we walked to first period together.
“So,” I said.
“So, what?” Jeena countered.
“Are you going to dump him?”
Jeena sighed. “I don’t know. He’s gone off to the Marines, the last thing I need to do is tell him that I want to break up. He’s in a war, for God’s sake.” She peered at me. “You didn’t need to confuse him as well. With your kiss.”
I blushed madly. “Well, I don’t even know what the hell I was thinking when I kissed him. It’s not like you’ve ever kissed him!”
“Because I don’t feel that way about him.”
“Yeah, I know. Why didn’t you dump him sooner?”
“So that you could pick up the pieces?” she teased. I glared at her.
“You know very well that he doesn’t love me. He never did and he never will.”
“Yeah, well, you never know.”
We were at our class and that kept me from responding to that. I have been in love with Kay almost since I met him. He picked Jeena over me, even though he always tells me everything, every fear, every problem. She doesn’t tell him everything, it always comes to me. I hate being in the middle. So many times I’ve said that I’m tired of being in the middle, not being able to say any secrets, so many times I’ve said that I don’t want to know anymore, but I still end up knowing. It’s a real pain.
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Jeena
Don’t hate me. I have an amazing boyfriend, but I don’t love him. I thought I did, but I don’t. And I haven’t had the guts to break up with him. He loves me so much, it would kill him to know that I don’t love him back.
But Lien loves him. He’s always been too blind to see how much she truly loves him. She sacrificed her own happiness so that we could be happy. But I’m not. Well, I am happy to know that I’m loved, but I don’t love him.
I’ve never truly understood why he loves me. I hardly tell him anything, we don’t go out on dates, we don’t even talk on the phone much. (Well, that’s partly my parents’ fault. They never let me use the phone.)
I thought I was in love with him, but I guess I was wrong. It’s hard for me to talk about my feelings, especially with my boyfriends. I should have told him that I wasn’t in love with him when I wasn’t, but I let it get to this. I say things that have no meaning.
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“So which college are you going to?” Sara asked Lien. Applications were due later that month, and everyone wanted to know who was going where.
“I’m not going.”
“WHAT?!” everyone at the table shrieked. Everyone consisted of Sara and Sari (the twins), Jeena, Ethan, Jacob, and Rebecca.
“Why not?” Rebecca asked.
Lien shrugged. “I just don’t want to go to college. I’m planning on being a writer. Actually, I could be published right now, but my parents don’t know and since I’m not eighteen yet,” Lien sighed, “well, I just can’t get published without my parents’ permission or until I’m eighteen.”
“Wow!” Jacob said admiringly. “I didn’t know that you write! I thought you only drew.”
Lien glared at him. “Well that goes to show how little you know about me!”
“Why don’t you tell your parents?” Sari asked. “You should tell them! You’re an awesome writer, you know.”
“Yeah, well, they’re Asian. They expect me to go to college and get like a PhD. Probably in some medical field, too.”
Sari frowned at her. “Still. Try and talk to them!”
“I will. Eventually.”
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Jacob ran after Lien. It was after-school but she needed to leave. Strict old parents.
“Lien, wait up!” Jacob called.
Lien slowed down just a bit. “What?”
“Um… Well, are you mad at me?”
“No. Why should I be? You’re my friend.”
“Yeah, about being friends… I r-really like you…” Lien turned around and stared at him. He was blushing madly. “I think I’m in l-love…with you…”
She hated to say it, but she had to. She didn’t feel the same way. The only person she loved was Kay and even though he wouldn’t be back for four years, she couldn’t just go out with someone else.
“I’m really sorry Jacob… but I like someone else… Also, I don’t date non-Christians.”
“Kay wasn’t a Christian either. Go out with me. Kay’s gone,” Jacob said softly.
Lien felt her rage boil up. How dare he say that! Kay would come back. He would stop at nothing to return, even if it was only for Jeena.
“He is coming back. How dare you say that! I thought you were his friend! I thought you were my friend!” Tears threatened to spill from her eyes so she quickly turned and ran to her car.
Jacob looked sadly after her. He had totally screwed up. He thought he had a chance because Kay had left. He hadn’t meant to say those things, but it was true. Kay would be gone for four years, and there was a chance he wouldn’t come back. In four years time, feelings would change…
void-of-randomness - Glad you think it's so good. I wonder how it's all going to end...
teabean85 - No, it's not all of Lien's and Kay's POV, though they are the biggest characters. There are some parts where I felt it was better to use Jeena's perspective, or none at all. Thanks for thinking it's so good.
ind-fam - It's interesting, it's confusing. What can I say?
Yingzha - I can't believe she went for the kiss either. It was very impulsive, something I'd probably never do.
Hope you enjoy this chapter.
EmpatheticAngel
