I had another relapse today.
I went back to when I said goodbye to you
It's still all so clear

I can remember the sand color of your hair
The ocean grey depths of your eyes
But for the life of me I can not remember your voice

I can hear your laugh though
Through the memories
So soft, so deep, and warm.

I remember the last day
The way you walked me away from the others
And as we stood there in the night
You told me how much you'd miss me
And I told you I it back

You hugged me then for it seemed a life time
It was urgent though, as if you wanted me to understand

And at the same time my heart was pounding
Trying to push the words out my throat
Tried to make me say "I love you"
But I couldn't do it

Because admitting it would have been cruel to you
However, back then I didn't think...

I didn't realize
I was cruel to my own heart

It still aches for you
It still wants to cry out to you
Wants you to hold me tighter
Wants me to whisper the words against your neck as we dance in a dream

I love you. I always will.

No matter how many miles are between us
No matter how many years come and go
I'll remember the love we shared, but didn't...