what if it's me?

what if i am the hypocrite here?

pretending to love everyone equally

yet hating the ones who just don't get it

the ones who are so pathetically insecure

that they appear shallow, uncaring,

judgemental, and cruel

but don't they need to be loved too?

and yet i cannot love them

when i can barely tolerate them

how many times must i bite my tongue

acting like it's okay

i'm okay, you're okay, everyone's okay

when in reality i cannot stand them

i am a hypocrite

a pretense of love yet

full of ugliness and hatred

god, forgive me

make me more like you

and less like me

help me to love the way you do