There’s No Name For The Pain You Cause

Do you know how many times I’ve thought of ending my life?
Neither do I, but I would never do it
I would never give you the satisfaction of knowing that you broke me

Flashes of bad memories run through my mind
There’s no way to get them out
And no way to get you out of my life

I can’t take this for much longer
What comes first
Me giving up or you letting go?

I made these scars but they’re because of you
I have nothing to look forward to and everything to look back on
Try finding yourself a new victim and leaving me alone

Determination is just a word but I’m full of it
To get rid of you would be the best thing I could accomplish
But you’re like a rat that steals the cheese and leaves the trap for me to step on

Actually, you’re just a rat
A dog, a pig, a flea, a spineless disgusting fish that won’t get caught
Wait a minute, those animals are better than you, and you know it

I’ll force myself to smile and walk past you
But if you lay another hand on me then I’ll cut it off
No, not your hand

Trying to make people pity you only makes you look weak
I’m stronger than you are and still you manage to come out on top
The day I crush you is the day I’ll win my life back

The day you give in is the day my life will begin again