Turn Away

You act as if your care is somewhere else
How can you want him and pretend you don't
You love how it feels when he gets jealous
You pretend you're moving on but you won't

Then you find he was all you would ever need
You search and then compare
You're so confused by the life you lead
Not even noticing the mask you wear

You feel you turned away from your love life
That feeling you're supposed to be with him
You lay there losing sleep thinking at night
About how you're new guy is just a whim

Because the new is not improved
And you see it every day
Your heart remains unmoved
In every single way

But you know you can't turn back anymore
There's nothing more you can both say
Except it hurts to know that he's not yours
The best you can do is turn away