.:. Right Before... .:.

The brakes aren't working. Oh dear lord, save me, Im going to crash.....

Its like those big block buster movies, when someone is about to crash, everything just goes in slow motion. Well, its happening for me too.

So this is it i guess. The big finalle of the life of dear sweet Michelle Frost. Haha, how ironic, when throughout my life there were so many times when i wished lightning could strike me and take my life but now, at the- my very last moments, i fear death and i want to live. How very ironic it is. Perhaps its like this for every other person.

I sigh and close my eyes... should've gotten a check up on the car last week, like dad suggested. I hate it when my parents are right. They are ALWAYS right, and that just really gets on my nerves. Dad was even right when he said he didnt think this wreck of a car of mine would last 3 weeks jokingly. How very irritating indeed. Oh well. This is it. The end.

Who knew the end, MY end would be so calm? There were no cars on the road. I thank God for that, if there even IS a God. Funny how i would question the existence of HIM in the end, when i had believed my whole entire life. Perhaps i could try jumping out of this car... roll off the bridge and plunge into cold cold water in the middle of the sea. And then maybe float along the water for hell knows how long and then drown in the end. Its the same anyway.

They say your whole life flashes before you before your end, and yet, i dont see any traces of my life playing back in my mind. Those liars putting ideas into other peoples mind. Then again, maybe this is a sign that i wasnt going to die. I stare into the blackness of the night sky, how i longed to see a star. Only one would be sufficient enough to cure the loneliness i now feel deep inside my heart. Im going to die alone. That thought hurts, i dont want to be alone. Thank goodness no one will know of my selfish thoughts. Selfish till the very end, is that human nature? or is it just me?

Holy shit, is that a CAR i see? Wait, TWO CARS!?! No. No. No. Please let it be just my imagination. Please oh please. I was only kidding about not wanting to dying alone. I wouldnt DREAM of taking anyone with me. Please dont be a car. Please. Please.

Oh God. It was a car. Two cars. A posh car alongside a wreck of a car, just like mine, only maybe worse. Never been an expert with cars of any sorts, just didnt have the interest, so i cant tell what car it is. At least i know one is expensive and the other isnt. Oh Lord have mercy, what am I to do? Im going to crash into one of them. One. And its my decision to make.

Rich people have a lot of money right? and usually in movies poor people prove to be more affectionate to their family. Perhaps the life inside the wreck of a car was the one that earned for the poor family, maybe they wouldn't be able to survive without said person. Perhaps he was the one that put bread on the table. Then again, it wouldnt be fair to just steal the life of a rich man, just because he is rich and will leave enough insurance money to cover his family's life forever and eternity. Blast. Its a wonder how i can still think so rationally when my death was nearing with each passing second.

Forget about both the cars. I just cant take away another life. I cant bring them with me. None of them. I'll go alone, its the right thing to do. I turned the wheel and the car flew off the bridge......

At least i'll die in style. Just thinking of what tomorrows headlines will be makes me laugh, the humourless laugh, the painful and sad laughter. Who ever said people laughed only when they're happy? car flies over bridge and girl dies. Who knows what those pesky news reporters will write... Girl commiting suicide for who knows what. That'll be the mystery of the century. My parents faces flashed before me. Their smiling faces. So this is what its like to die. I always wondered, and i guess i finally got my answer. Im going to miss you mom, dad. Goodbye. I'll be waiting for you.

..... and the car took a head plunge into the sea, and all i saw was white.

The End

Authors Note : I just thought of the plot in the car on the way home. And so decided to write it down, for memories sake and stuff. Perhaps there could be a more suitable beginning, or maybe this could be the beginning and the story would follow up about her regrets and stuff when shes but a spirit. who knows.