one day I was told I was fake

I wish I was

I cant run to you any more

I hand you my heart broken

it may still be beating

not completely sure

hold on to me

I think I am starting to fade

these cuts are getting deeper

I wish I was brave enough

wonder what its like

I am out in the cold

tonight I fainted on my stairs

to much blood went down the drain

wonder how much is enough

to get you out of my mind

someone once told me love isn’t worth it

then what I have isn’t love

'cause you are so worth it

popping pills like candy

the bitterness makes me shake

I am freezing and burning up

my hair is matted to my face with sweat

I want this to be the end

I am everything I don’t want to be

my name is forgotten

when I wake up in my makeup

I just smear it across my face

and make a wish to be beautiful enough for you

pray every night

rejected everyday

heart is beating fast

hands are shaking

I am so jealous

you don’t care

wonder if u would notice

I guess it doesn’t matter

guess its to late to matter now

hope this is the last time...