Has it ever accured to you how hard it is, to keep yourself from falling in or out of love? Trust me, it is. If you're not in love, you don't know how good you've got it. But to those who are, or have been, I feel your pain. Love is so hard to stay away from, yet so easy to fall andbe comfortable,or getyourself tangled in.

You see, I'm in love. I know it sounds retarded in words or on paper, but it's the truth.

There's a problem, tho. This love, makes me feel just like I do with all the other people I've liked. I simply get out of bed to see him at school . But with this boy, I almost faint when I see him smile. It pisses me off, 'cause it makes me sound like a wimp.

That line made me sound like some macho gay guy, didn't it? Well, guess what, I'm a girl. A "young lady" HA! As if. I am one of the meanest girls my "boyfriends" have ever met, if not the meanest. I put boyfriends in quotations because I've never had a boyfriend, only boys that are my friends. I like hanging out with the boys, my boys. I love to play basketball or football with them, and I love to eat lunch with them. They are my best friends. They respect me because I DEMAND it, and I care for them because they've EARNED it. They are my friends, tho, because I forced it and tried to break into their group and be accepted. I kept pushing, kept trying to be able to sit down without an annoyed look getting sent my way. It paid off. I am happy. They are happy, but careful not to get me upset.

I am in the 10th grade. My bestest friends are Gary(Gareth) and Julius. I'm in love with Gary, but in like with Julius. With Gary, I look for him constantly. But with Julius, I'm happy to see him anywhere, and whenever, as long as it's often. I think my love might be like, and my like, still just like. Which means, I am CRAZY in like with 2 boys. Grea-at.

Gareth and I play basketball with, or against each other.

Julius and I play football together, or against the other.

I live in Brentwood, California. A small town that is really big on history. I go to Justice High School, our rival school is Heritage High. I am 15 years old. Born January 16th, 1991. All of our sports teams are co-ed. No SEXIST idiots go to our school. Well, maybe a lot do, but their seldom-spoken negative thoughts are often silenced very quickly. Most of the teams are still boys and another, girls. But that's just because a lot of the girls at our school are prissy.

I am in 2 likes, but that's just the beginning of this new, already tangled web. Try to keep up. Because on the way, I'll be picking up newer flies to add to my 2.

Great.