How long have you been here?
How long have I been blind
I feel the aches of growing
As I look at time behind

I’ve tasted joy and fear
I’ve heeled and gone astray
I’ve felt my own blood flowing
And I’ve knelt down to pray

I couldn’t have done it all
If I were aware of you
I would have ran and hid
Knowing that you knew

Now I hear your call
Saying out my real name
Repeating all I did
Making me feel shame

Now we’re face to face
And I feel sick deep down
I’m naked to your eyes
Beneath my fabricated gown

Taken up in chains of lace
You have me tightly bound
Ignoring my foolish cries
Blocking out my sound

I hoped I’d never meet you
Though I knew you all along
You’ve always been present
You’ve always been so strong

This feeling isn’t new
As I dare to look and see
Malicious pricks of resent
To see that you are me

I am the mask you wore
When you slew that man, cold
I am the skin you put on
When your childhood flesh grew old

I am the words you swore
When you pierced your own heart through
I am the late, vain dawn
Whose sunlight deserted you

I thought I was liberated
From you, my angel wings
I thought we’d never meet
Among other obscene things

Never was your life deliberated
Never were you in the mirror
Now you have me beat
Now things are getting clearer

How does one face one’s self?
How does one make amends?
How does one face the past?
How does one face ends?

I cannot flee myself
So here we are together
My guilt and shame is vast
And we will hurt forever