Forgetful Thoughts of An Anti-Christ

Destruction surrounds us but yet you still manage to crack a smile.
The world is ending but you just want to be held.
Our friends are dying but you just want to play.
Our world has fallen apart but yet you couldnt be happier.
You bring chaos wherever you go but you live everyday with out a care in the world.
You love without the fear of the end you laugh at all the misery that you cause yet you are I and I have to except the pain that you bring.
You taught me to live without emotions.
You told me to destroy and cause havoc without caring who gets in the way, ever since I met you I have lived with just pain.
To say that I need is to say that I can breath to say that I am alive is to say that I live only dreams, to admit that I am here is to acknowledge the fact that I cant feel so by all means please help me get away from your happiness and let me die in peace.
In the end I guess thats what we all want. Right?