I KNOW YOU HATE ME. PLEASE JUST HAVE PITY AND READ THIS TO UNDERSTAND WHAT'S HAPPENING AND TO GIVE ME A SECOND CHANCE.

I'm sorry.

I just feel like I should really say that to all my readers. I've been so lazy lately and haven't been paying attention to my stories. I guess with this story, I'm just getting nervous because its close to its end (only a few chapters left -- three at most) and I don't plan on a sequel or anything... So, I don't want the ending to suck.

Also, you have to understand... I have eleven stories up. Only one of them (Unable to Accept) is complete and I neglect those stories just as much as I'm neglecting this one.

SERIOUSLY GUYS, ITS TRUE!

I actually am working on this story. I just keep erasing everything I write because its not turning out right. Also, why do you people even like my crap? I've reread my stories and they're all messy and mistakes constantly and just horrible. Why do you keep reading?

Although I think I'm getting better lately, I keep slipping from writing by just sitting idly when I can't think of anything new. So, instead, I'm planning on rewriting over the summer. Not changing the plot or anything, just cleaning up my horrible bile that I tried to pass off as writing. So, if you're ever bored, check up on my stories and see their cleaned up versions.

A SPECIAL REQUEST TO ANYONE WHO'S UP FOR IT!

I, as some of you know (mostly those who've been reading A Blood Thirst, seeing as I've updated that story the most lately), have a lovely beta. I do, however, want maybe a few other betas (one or two, I'm not picky). My beta is lovely and we get along very nicely and she's very kind to me, but, unlike me, she has a life. I feel bad for throwing my choppy writing to her. I think my writing process would go much faster if I had multiple betas. That way, if I ever finish two updates close together, I won't have to overload my poor, lovely beta with my writing drafts (which, trust me, are horrible and riddled with fail).

I'll take anyone who offers, as many who offers so don't be shy about it. Just email me! (My email is on my account page, or you can just message me.)

I know you're all upset because you saw that I updated and then it turned out to be me begging for mercy, but please try to understand this:

I am starting my Junior year in high school this year.

I have AP homework to do over the summer.

I have a few friends who like to save me from melting into my couch.

I live next to the beach and that's very distracting.

I refuse to write outside of my house because I hate those fags who write on their laptops in Starbucks, the stuckup bitches.

I have a few...problems...just like any other person, and I'm not above taking a rest when I feel overwhelmed.

I have stress-induced insomnia and I'm trying my best to handle it.

I will never abandon my stories. I know I took down a few I posted, but that's because, looking back, I felt I posted them too soon instead of better developing them.

I am human, and as pathetic as that is, I can't do everything I want to all at once. Please forgive me.

BONUS PRIZE:

Have something you want? For some reason, I can write side stories that my friends like. Want something in return for putting up with me? Send me a side story request and I'll crank it out for you. No matter what. Want Zana and Akio to fuck? Done. What about Takashi and Kaito? Done. For any of my stories, I will write you something.

No, I'm serious people. I'll do it. Ask, and it shall be done.

That includes you, my lovely beta. You get anything you want.