|Ourselves in Cubism
Author: Faithless Juliet PM
I fall asleep in between your hot and sticky thighs.Rated: Fiction M - English - Poetry - Words: 255 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 3 - Published: 08-30-06 - id: 2239110
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Ourselves in Cubism
It's not our bodies in cubism;
the cavity of lonely caresses
how you wandered into my bathwater
needing to touch something
something real. It's not modernistic,
or ultramodern. It's not surrealistic -
it's how I need to pretend
that I don't want you to speak.
It's how you wouldn't, even if
I asked you to.
It's Sinatra, playing from the other room,
a thick muscle tethered
heartbeats at first on low
and then screaming.
It's the mistakes I've made;
how people tell me that I've changed since the crash,
and when we lay; nude impressionists I fall
asleep in between your hot and sticky thighs.
I dream about weeping, sobbing behind closed doors
and when I wake up my fists are clenched,
my heart is coiled
and I curl (un-gathered) inside a time
when I did not feel so scattered.
It's not that you leave me each morning
with a kiss on the bridge of my nose,
or that you didn't know me before it happened.
It isn't that I don't want to talk about it
with a doctor who holds one of my breasts in his hand.
It isn't his questions.
It isn't your concerns.
It's the shape of my face
twisted across the glass;
in and out of the impact.
The not so phantom pain of my body
a year later.
It isn't you